Saturday, 31 December 2011

The end of 2011


Salam & Hye..

Here we are, the last day of 2011, where everybody are so busy celebrating New 2012 Year.

Somehow, i am speechless.. what am i gonna say or write? 

Let bygone be bygone.. 

Hoping for a better me, better days, better life onward...


~~~

Friday, 30 December 2011

Review: Miss Wave (bahaha!)

Salam & Hye!

Yay, finally i was able to watch the most wanted Malay movie of the year..! It's Miss wave (?????) aka "Ombak Rindu".. Jeng jeng jeng... 



Bila release je download link dari TeamAryzs, terus je aku download dengan semangat yg berkobar2! Begini la nasib pencinta drama/filem melayu yang duk kat luaq negri.. bergantung harap dengan uploader klu nak tgk movie2 buatan Malaysia.. walau macam outdated sikit, tapi tak kisah la kan... ye lah, Miss Wave ni dah untung almost RM10 juta kat Malaysia, tapi aku baru je nak tengok, nak meluahkan buah fikiran aku pasal movie nie kan.. neway tak kisah.. let's check dis movie out, from my point of view~~~

oh ya sebelum aku meluahkan buah fikiran ini, jom kita baca sinopsis untuk movie nie, from this site:: TeamAryzs

filem yang diadaptasikan daripada novel Ombak Rindu ini mengisahkan tentang perjalanan cinta dua insan, Izzah dan Hariz dari dua dunia yang berbezadan mereka terpaksa menempuh pelbagai rintangan sebelum menemui kebahagiaan. Izzah adalah gadis kampung yang telah dijual oleh bapa saudaranya kepada sebuah kelab hiburan di K.L untuk dijadikan pelacur. Seorang pemuda, Hariz anak Datuk Sufiah, pemilik empayar perniagaan SUFIAH CEMERLANG telah mermbeli Izzah dari pemilik kelab tersebut untuk dijadikan perempuan simpanan, namun Izzah telah merayu Hariz supaya menikahinya untuk menghalalkan hubungan mereka.
Hariz setuju dengan syarat Izzah tidak menuntut sebarang hak sebagai isteri. namun selepas itu, hariz yang kasar dan panas baran telah jatuh cinta dengan Izzah yang penuh dengan kelembutan. hariz kemudian terpaksa menikahi Mila, kawan zaman persekolahannya setelah didesak oleh Datuk Sufiah dan Mila yang amat mencintainya. Semasa Hariz koma dihospital akibat kemalangan jalan raya, Datuk Sufiah telah menghalau Izzah keluar dari bungalow Hariz dan merampas telefon bimbit Izzah.
Setelah keluar dari hospital, Datuk Sufiah memberitahu Hariz yang Izzah telah menjalani hubungan dengan lelaki lain. Hariz yang marah telah memberitahu Izzah bahawa dia akan digantung tidak bertali semasa terserempak dengan Izzah di rumah pak Dollah, pemandu keluarga Datuk Sufiah. Izzah kemudian kembali ke kampungnya. Pak Dollah yang marah dengan Datuk Sufiah telah memecahkan rahsia bahawa hariz adalah anaknya yang telah diserahkan kepada suami Datuk Sufiah untuk dijadikan anak angkat serta memberitahu Hariz bahawa Izzah tidak bersalah. Hariz yang menyesal dan amat rindukan Izzah telah pergi ke kampung Izzah untuk memujuk supaya kembali kepangkuannya. Mila datang ke kampung Izzah dan menuntut cerai dari Hariz. Filem ini berakhir dengan Izzah dan Hariz menjalani hidup bahagia tanpa rahsia lagi.


Sebenarnye movie ni dah lama ditayangkan kat Malaysia, kalau tak silap 1st Dec 2011. and of course, sbb Aaron Aziz la aku ternanti2kan movie ni sangat2, ditambah dengan pengalaman membaca sendiri novel Ombak Rindu nie, kalau tak silap waktu aku Form 3..  tapi aku dah tak ingat sangat la jalan cerita sebenar dalam novel tu, so tak dapat la nak compare yang mana satu lagi bestt, versi movie atau novel..
apa2 pun, aaron aziz sangat charming!!!  

Alahaaaaiiii~

Kat internet, dari apa yang aku dah baca, macam2 feedback yang aku dapat.. ada yang kata best giler (sampai meleleh2 air mata), ada yang cakap novel version lagi best & menyayat hati, and ada jugak yang kata filem ni macam ntah apa2!

aku terpanggil nak buat review ni bila ada yang beri pandangan, kata filem ni macam merendahkan martabat perempuan.. and statment ni dipantulkan pada watak Izzah yang ada dalam novel nie, which dikatakan perempuan yang tak berhak hidup bahagia sebab tak pandai nak defend diri sendiri dari perkara2 yang datang kepada dia, terutama apa yang dilakukan Harriz terhadap dirinya..

Aku dah tengok filem ni 2 kali dalam waktu 24 jam. Mula2 aku baca statment tu aku macam setuju, tapi bila aku go through semula movie nie, aku rasa aku kurang setuju dengan statment tersebut. I mean, come on.. cube tengok balik movie nie, n fokuskan pada watak Izzah & Harriz. Izzah tu seorang gadis kampung yang datang ke bandaraya besar sebab ikot pakcik die yang giler duit. Dia DIJUAL ke kelab malam utk jadi pelacur, then kebetulan berjumpa dengan Harriz yang kemudian dirogol. Izzah then merayu pada Harriz supaya bawak dia keluar dari club tersebut, which then meleret kepada rayuan supaya Harriz menikah dengan dirinya, dan sudi dianggap CUMA sebagai seorang perempuan simpanan, atas sebab apa? Sebab maruah dia sebagai seorang perempuan yang sudah ditiduri tanpa rela.. (dan of course sebab agama jugak sebab Izzah bawak watak sebagai seorang ustazah, yang tahu  selok belok agama)

so kenapa benda ni yang dikatakan sebagai tak boleh nak defend diri dia sendiri? salah ke bila Izzah merayu kepada Harriz meminta supaya dinikahi..? urm.. 

then timbul isu kononnye dalam movie ni Izzah just mampu nak berdiam diri bila dikasari oleh Harriz.. oh boy.. aku rasa banyak lagi movie lain yang tunjuk aksi2 keganasan dalam rumah tangga, knapa tak timbul plak isu mcm ni kan?



...aku thumbs up kat lakonan Lisa Surihani sebagai Mila Amelia.. haha.. walaupun aku rasa beliau sedikit over dalam citer nie, tapi aku rase it works! sesuai la dengan watak citer tu.. dari awal sampai akhir, Mila berjaya ditonjolkan sebagai perempuan yang spoil habes!! terkedu Harriz bila Mila mengamuk, kalau dengan Izzah bukan main garang lagi eh??  heh~

AND AKU SETUJU DENGAN SATU STATMENT YANG AKU BACA TADI, HERO DALAM CITER NI SEBENARNYE BUKAN HARRIZ, TAPI PAK DOLLAH!! 

Peace Pak Dollah~~~

YEAH PAK DOLLAH, GUD JOOB!!

sekian review movie dari aku, yang pertama, and mungkin yang terakhir, sbb aku tak minat sgt nak review2 nie.. just kali ni special utk aaron aziz.. bahaha~




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Thursday, 29 December 2011

Hajat yang tak kesampaian~




APAKAH ERTI melangkah masuk ke Pizza Hut kalau tak makan pizza kan..??

tapi masalahnye, memang TAK DAPAT makan pizza!! Rase cam nak buka kaki seribu langkah je dari restaurant tersebut, tapi apakan daya kan…? Perut yang lapar meronta2  minta dimasukkan makanan..

Jadi, layan je la kan.. makan Lasagna & Fettuccine bersama Breadstick buatan Pizza Hut~

Poor you, my lurv..

Dun get upset..

We’ll go there later to eat some pizzas okay? My treat… ~

Nyummy!!!



~~~

Monday, 26 December 2011

To those who are getting married.. or already did~




This entry is dedicated specially to my beloved friends out there who are getting married soon, 
and also for those who already did..
all i wanna say is..

 C O N G R A T U L A T I O N S!!

from the bottom of my heart~

As i been told about the sacred news, i was so glad as my peers already in his/her way to end the status of being bachelor/bachelorette.. 

while me, still in my way to pursue my dreams.. GAMBATTE!

i know my time will come... i just need to stay focus on my works, and be happy about it...

Aim High, Pursue the Dreams!

~~~

Sunday, 25 December 2011

Simple or Special





they said that.. but i think otherwise...
sometime i do feel annoyed when that someone special didn't do anything to make me feel happy.. its not mean that i need something fabulous to impress me or to make me cheer happily.., 
but all i need is just something simple...

and of course, that simple things are hard to get..
for me, it should be quoted as..,,

"anyone can make YOU happy by doing something special, but only someone special can make YOU happy only by doing something simple...,"

~~~



Its me, just me, or ....



I am so mad at the person, i tried so hard to stay patient in any way.. 

But sometimes, i slipped over the cliff.. My emotions break down... and all i can do, i sit silently at the corner, crying quietly so that nobody will listen to the sound of this heart breaking..

The day started as a bright morning, and now, the sky turns cloudy, pouring the rains.. 
Same as my heart, now it flooded with pathetic emotions..
I am hoping for beautiful rainbow to appear tomorrow..
and chase away all the black memories and unforgivable acts upon me..


~~~

Saturday, 24 December 2011

TBC




TUBERCULOSIS
Etiologic agent
Mycobacteria belong to the family Mycobacteriaceae and the order actinomycetales. M. tuberculosis is a rod-shaped, non-spore forming, thin aerobic bacterium measuring 0.5um by 3um. Mycobateria are often neutral on gram staining. However, once stained, the bacilli cannot be decolorized by acid alcohol; this characteristic justifies their classification as acid fast bacilli. Acid fastness is due mainly to the organisms’ high content of mycolic acids, long chain cross-linked fatty acids and other cell wall lipids. In the mycobacterial cell wall, lipids are linked to underlying arabinogalactan and peptidoglycan. This structure confers very low permeability of the cell wall, thus reducing the effectiveness of most antibiotics. Another molecule in the mycobacterial cell wall, lipoarabinimannan is involved in the pathogen-host interactionand facilitates the survival of M. tuberculosis within macrophages.

From exposure to infection
M. tuberculosis is most commonly transmitted from a person with infectious pulmonary tuberculosis to others by droplet nuclei, which are aerosolized by coughing, sneezing or speaking. The tiny droplets dry rapidly and may remain suspended in the air for several hours and may reach the terminal air passages when inhaled.
The probability of contact with a person who has an infectious form of tuberculosis, the intimacy and duration of that contact, the degree of infectiousness of the case and the shared environment in which the contact takes place are all important determinants of the likelihood of transmission. Severeal studies on close contact situations have clearly demonstrated that tuberculosis patients whose sputum contains AFB visibly by microscopy are the most likely to transmit the infection. The most infectious patients have cavitary pulmonary disease or much less common, laryngeal tuberculosis and produce sputum containing as many as 10^5-10^7 AFB/mL. Patients with sputum smear-negative/culture positive TB are less infectious and those with culture-negative pulmonary disease and extrapulmonary TB are essentially non-infectious.
From infection to disease
The risk of developing disease after being infected depends largely on endogenous factors, such as the individual’s innate immunologic and nonimmunologic defenses and level of function of cell-mediated immunity (CMI). Clinical illnesses directly following infection is classified as primary tuberculosis and is common among children up to 4 years of age and among immunocompromised persons. When infection is acquired later in life, the chance is greater that the mature immune system will contain it at least temporarily. The majority of infected individuals take time about 1-2 years before they ultimately develop the disease.
Among the infected persons, the incidence of TB is highest during late adolescence and early adulthood; with unclear reasons. The incidence among women peaks at 25-34 years old.
A variety of disease and conditions favor the development of active TB. The most potent factor for TB among infected person is clearly HIV co-infection, which suppresses cellular immunity.

Pathogenesis & Immunity
Infection & Macrophage Invasion
The interaction of M. TB with the human host begins when droplet nuclei containing microorganisms from infectious patients are inhaled. The majority of inhaled bacilli trapped in the upper airways and expelled by ciliated mucosal cells, and a fraction (<10%) reach the alveoli. Alveolar macrophages that have not yet been activated phagocytize the bacilli.  Invasion of macrophages by mycobacteria results largely from binding of the bacterial cell wall with a variety of macrophage cell-surface molecules, including complement receptors, mannose receptors, immunoglobulin receptor and type-A scavenger receptors. Phagocytosis is enhanced by complement activation leading to opsonization of bacilli with C3 activation products, such as C3b. After the phagosome forms, the survival of M.TB within it seems to depend on reduced acidification due to lack of accumulation of vesicular proton-adenosine triphosphatase. A complex series of events is probably generated by the bacterial cell-wall glycolipid lipoarabinomannan (LAM). LAM inhibits the intracellular increase of Ca2+. Thus the Ca2+/calmodulin pathway is impaired, and the bacilli may survive within the phagosome.
*** (impair in Ca2+/calmodulin pathway disrupt the maturation process of phagosome)
Host response
In the initial stage of host-bacterium interaction, either fusion between phagosome and lysosomes occurs, preventing bacillary survival, or the bacilli begin to multiply, ultimately killing the macrophage. A variety of chemoattractants that are released after cell lysis recruit additional immature monocyte-derived macrophages, including dendritic cells, which migrate to the draining lymph nodes and present mycobacterial antigens to T-lymphocytes. At this point, the development of CMI and humoral immunity begins.
About 2-4wks after infection, two hosts responses o M.TB develop; a macrophage-activating CMI response and a tissue-damaging response. The macrophage activating response is a T cell mediated phenomenon resulting in the activation of macrophages that are capable of killing and digesting tubercle bacilli. The tissue-damaging response is the result of a delayed-type hypersensitivity (DTH) reaction to various bacillary antigens; it destroys unactivated macrophages that contain multiply bacilli but also causes caseous necrosis of the involved tissues. Although both of these responses can inhibit mycobacterial growth, it is the balance between the two that determines the form of TB that will develop subsequently.
Granuloma formation
With the development of specific immunity and the accumulation of large numbers of activated macrophages at the site of the primary lesion, granulomatous lesions are formed. This lesion consists of accumulations of lymphocytes and activated macrophages that evolve towards epithelioid and giant cell morphologies. Initially, the tissue damaging response can limit mycobacterial growth within macrophages. As stated, this response mediated by various bacterial products, produces early solid necrosis in the center of the tubercle. Although the M.TB can survive, its growth is inhibited by low oxygen tension and low pH. At this point, some lesions may heal by fibrosis, with subsequent calcification, whereas inflammation and necrosis occur in other lesions.
The macrophage-activating response
CMI is critical at this early stage. In majority infected individuals, local macrophages are activated when bacillary antigens (processed by macrophages) stimulate T lymphocytes to release a variety of lymphokines. These activated macrophages aggregates around the lesion’s center and effectively neutralize tubercle bacilli without causing further tissue destruction. In the central part of the lesion, the necrotic material resembles soft cheese (caseous necrosis) a phenomenon that may also observed in other conditions such as neoplasms. Even when healing takes place, viable bacilli may remain dormant within macrophages or in the necrotic material for many years. These healed lesions in the lung parenchyma and hilar lymph nodes may later undergo calcification.
The Delayed-Type Hypersensitive Reaction
In a minority of cases, the macrophage-activating response is weak, and mycobacterial growth can be inhibited only by intensified DTH reactions, which lead to lung tissue destruction.  The lesion tends to enlarge further, and the surrounding tissue is progressively damaged. At the center of lesion, the caseous material liquefies. Bronchial walls as well as blood vessels are invaded and destroyed, and cavities are formed. The liquefied caseous material containing large numbers of bacilli is drained through bronchi. Within the cavity, tubercle bacilli multiply, spill into airways and are discharged into environment through expiratory maneuvers such as talking and coughing.
In the early stages of infection, bacilli are usually transported by macrophages to regional lymph nodes, from which they gain access to the bloodstream and disseminate widely throughout the body. The resulting lesions may undergo the same evolution as those in the lungs, although most tend to heal. In young children with poor natural immunity, hematogenous dissemination may result in fatal military TB or tuberculous meningitis.
Role of Macrophages and Monocytes
While CMI confers partial protection against M.TB, humoral immunity plays a less well-defined role in protection. In the case of CMI, 2 types of cells are essential; macrophages (which directly phagocytize tubercle bacilli) and –cells (which induce protection through the production of cytokines, especially IFN-gamma.
After infection, alveolar macrophages secrete various cytokines responsible for a number of events as well as systemic effects. Monocytes & macrophages attracted to the site are key components of immune response. Their primary mechanism is probably related to production of nitric oxide, which has antimycobacterial activity and increases synthesis of cytokines such as TNF-alpha and IL-1, which in turn regulate release of reactive nitrogen intermediates. In addition, macrophages can undergo apoptosis, a defensive mechanism to prevent release of cytokines and bacilli via their sequestration in the apoptotic cell.



CLINICAL MANIFESTATIONS
(1)    Pulmonary tuberculosis
Pulmonary tuberculosis can be categorized as primary or post-primary (secondary)
Primary disease
Primary pulmonary TB occurs soon after the initial infection with tubercle bacilli. This form of disease often seen in children who live in areas with high TB transmission. The middle and lower lung zones are the areas that most commonly involved in primary TB as the air is distributed here. The lesion forming after infection is usually peripheral and accompanied in more than half of cases by hilar and paratracheal lymphadenopathy, which may not detectable on CXR. In majority cases, the lesions heals spontaneously and may later be evident as a small calcified nodule (Ghon lesion)
In children and in persons with impaired immunity, the primary pulmonary TB may progress rapidly to clinical illness. The initial lesion increased in size and can evolve indifferent ways. Pleural effusion results from the penetration of bacilli into pleural space from an adjacent subpleural focus. In severe cases, the primary site rapidly enlarges, its central portion undergoes necrosis and cavitation develops. TB in young children is almost invariably accompanied by hilar or mediastinal lymphadenopathy due to spread of bacilli from the lung parenchyma through lymphatic vessels. Enlarged lymph nodes may compress bronchi, causing obstruction and subsequent segmental or lobar collapse. Partial obstruction may cause obstructive emphysema, and bronchiectasis may also develop. Hematogenous dissemination which is common and often asymptomatic may result in the most severe manifestations of primary M.TB infection. Bacilli reach the bloodstream from the pulmonary lesion or the lymph nodes and disseminate into various organs, where they may produce granulomatous lesions. Immunocompromised persons may develop military TB and /or tuberculous meningitis.

Post-primary disease
Also called adult-type, reactivation or secondary tuberculosis, post-primary disease results from endogenous reactivation of latent infection and is usually localized to the apical and posterior segments of upper lobes, where the substantially higher mean oxygen tension favors mycobacterial growth. In addition, the superior segments of the lower lobes frequently involved. The extent of lung parenchymal involvement varies greatly, from small infiltrates to extensive cavitary disease. With cavity formation, liquefied necrotic contents are ultimately discharged into the airways, resulting in satellite lesions within the lungs that may in turn undergo cavitation. Massive involvement of pulmonary segments or lobes with coalescence of lesions produces tuberculous pneumonia.
Early in the course of disease, symptoms and signs are often nonspecific and insidious, consisting mainly of fever and night sweats, weight loss, anorexia, general malaise and weakness. However, in majority cases, cough eventually develops – often initially nonproductive and subsequently accompanied by the production of purulent sputum, sometimes with blood streaking. Massive hemoptysis may ensue as a consequence of the erosion of a blood vessel in the wall of cavity. Hemoptysis, however may also resukt from rupture of a dilated vessel in a cavity (Rasmussen’s aneurysm) or from aspergilloma formation in an old cavity. Pleuritic chest pain sometimes develops in patients with subpleural parenchymal lesions.
Physical findings are of limited use in pulmonary tuberculosis. Many patients have no abnormalities detectable by chest examination, whereas others have detectable rales in the involved areas during inspiration, especially after coughing. Occasionally, shonchi due to partial bronchial obstruction and classic amphoric breath sounds in areas with large cavities may be heard. Systemic features include fever in up to 80% of cases and wasting. Absence of fever, however does not exclude TB. The most common hematologic findings are mild anemia and leukocytosis. Hyponatremia due to SIADH has also been reported.

(2)    Extrapulmonary TB
The extrapulmonary sites most commonly involved in TB are the lymph nodes, pleura, genitourinary tract, bones and joints, meninges, peritoneum and pericardium.
Lymph node TB (Tuberculous Lymphadenitis)
The most common presentation of extrapulmonary TB is particularly frequent among HIV-infected patients. Once caused mainly by M. bovis, tuberculous lymphadenitis is due to M.TB. the disease presents as painless swelling of the lymph nodes, most commonly at posterior cervical and supraclavicular sites. Lymph nodes usually discrete and nontender in early disease but may be inflamed and have a fistulous ract draining caseous material. Associated pulmonary disease is seen in >40% of cases. Systemic symptoms are usually limited to HIV-infected patients. The diagnosis is established only by fine-needle aspiration or surgical biopsy.

Pleural TB
This is common in primary TB and may result from either contiguous spread of parenchymal inflammation or, as in many cases of pleurisy accompanying postprimary disease, actual penetration by tubercle bacilli into pleural space. The effusion may be small, remain unnoticed, and resolve sponatenously or may be sufficiently large to cause symptoms such as fever, peluritic chest pain, and dyspnea.
Physical findings are those of pleural effusion (dullness to percussion & absence of breath sound). A CXR reveals the effusion and, in up to 1/3 of cases, also shows a parenchymal lesion. Thoracocentesis is acquired to ascertain the nature of effusion and to differentiate it from manifestations of other etiologies. The fluid is straw colored and at times hemorrhagic. Neutrophils may predominate in the early stage while mononuclear cells are the typical finding later. Mesothelial cells are generally rare or absent. Needle biopsy of plerua often required for diagnosis and reveals granulomas and/or yields a positive culture in up to 80% of cases. This form of pleural TB responds well to chemotherapy and may resolve sponatenously.
Tuberculous empyema is a less common complication of pulmonary TB. It is usually the result of the rupture cavity with spillage of a large number or organisms into pleural spaces. This process may create a bronchoplerual fistula with evident air in the pleural space. A CXR shows hydropneumothroax with an air-fluid level. The pleural fluid is purulent and thick and contains large numbers of lymphocytes. Acid-fast smears and mycobacterial cultures are often positive. Surgical drainage is required as an adjunct to chemotherapy.
Tuberculous of upper airways
Nearly always a complication of advanced cavitary pulmonary Tb may involve the larynx, pharynx and epiglottis. Symptoms include hoarseness, dysphonia, and dysphagia in addition to chronic productive cough. Ulcerations may be seen on laryngoscopy. Acid-fast smear of the sputum is often positive but biopsy may be necessary in some cases to establish the diagnosis. Carcinoma of the larynx may have similar features but is usually painless.
Skeletal tuberculosis
In bone & joint disease, pathogenesis is related to reactivation of hematogenous foci or to spread from adjacent paravertebral lymph nodes. Weight bearing joints are most commonly affected. Spinal TB often involves two or more adjacent vertebral bodies. While the upper thoracic spine is the most common site of spinal TB in children, the lower thoracic and upper lumbar vertebrae are usually affected in adults. From the anterior superior or inferior angle of the vertebral body, the lesion slowly reaches the adjacent body, later affecting the intervertebral disk. With advanced of disease, collapse of vertebral bodies results in kyphosis (gibbus). A paravertebral cold abscess may also form. In the upper spine, this abscess may track to and penetrate chest wall, presenting as a soft tissue mass, in the lower spine it may reach the inguinal ligaments or present as psoas abscess.
Aspiration of the abscess or bone biopsy confirms the tuberculous etiology, as cultures are usually positive and histologic findings highly typical. TB of hip joints usually involving the head of femur, causes pain; TB of knee produces pain & swelling. If the disease goes unrecognized, the joints may be destroyed. Diagnosis requires examination of the synovial fluid, which is thick in appearance, with a high protein concentration and a variable cell count. Synovial biopsy and tissue culture may be necessary to establish the diagnosis.
Tuberculous Meningitis and Tuberculoma
It is seen most often in young children but also develop in adults, especially those infected with HIV. Tuberculous meningitis results from the Hematogenous spread of primary or postprimary pulmonary disease or from the rupture of a subependymal tubercle into the subarachnoid space. In more than half cases, evidence of old pulmonary lesions or a military pattern is found on chest radiography. The disease often presents subtly as headache and slight mental changes after a prodrome of weeks of low grade fever, malaise, anorexia and irritability. If not recognized, tuberculous meningitis may evolve acutely with severe headache, confusion, lethargy altered sensorium and neck rigidity. Typically, the disease evolves over 1-2 weeks, a course longer than that of bacterial meningitis. Paresis of cranial nerves is a frequent finding and the involvement of cerebral arteries may produce focal ischemia.
Lumbar puncture is the cornerstone of diagnosis. CSF reveals a high leukocyte counts, usually with predominance of lymphocytes but sometomes with a presdominance of neutrophils in the early stage; a protein content of 1-8g/L; and a low glucose concentration. Culture of CSF is diagnostic in up to 80% of cases and remains the gold standard. Imaging studies (CT and MRI) may show hydrocephalus and abnormal enhancement of basal cisterns or ependyma.
Gastrointestinal tuberculosis
GI TB is uncommon. Various pathogenetic mechanism are involved: swallowing of sputum with direct seeding, Hematogenous spread or ingestion of milk from cows affected by bovine TB. The terminal ileum and the cecum are the most commonly involved. Abdominal pain and swelling, obstruction, hematochezia and a palpable mass in the abdomen are common findings at presentation. Fever, weight loss, anorexia and night sweats are also common. With intestinal wall involvement, ulceration and fistulae may stimulate Crohn’s disease.
Tuberculous peritonitis follows either the direct spread of tubercle bacilli from ruptured lymph nodes and intraabdominal organs or hematogenous seeding. Nonspecific abdominal pain, fever and ascites should raise the suspicion of tuberculous peritonitis. Paracentesis reveals an exudative fluid with a high protein content and leukocytosis that is usually lymphocytic. Peritoneal biopsy is often needed to establish the diagnosis.
Pericardial Tuberculosis
The onset may be subacute, although an acute presentation with dyspnea, fever, dull retrosternal pain and a pericardial friction rub is possible. An effusion eventually develops in many cases; cardiovascular symptoms and signs of cardiac tamponade may ultimately appear. A definitive diagnosis can be obtained by pericardiocentesis under echocardiographic guidance. The effusion is exudative in nature, with a high count of leukocytes. Hemorrhagic effusion is frequent. Culture of pericardial fluid reveals M.TB in up 2/3 cases while pericardial biopsy has a higher yield.
Without treatment, pericardial TB is usually fatal. Even with treatment, complications may develop, including chronic constrictive pericarditis with thickening of the pericardium, fibrosis and sometimes calcification which may be visible on CXR. A course of glucocorticoid treatment (prednisone 20-60mg/d for up to 6wks) is useful in the management of acute disease, reducing effusion, facilitating hemodynamic recovery and thus decreasing mortality rates.
Miliary or Disseminated Tuberculosis
This is due to hematogenous spread of tubercle bacillia. In children is is often the consequence of primary infection, in adults it may be due to either recent infection or reactivation of old disseminated foci. The lesions are usually yellowish granulomas 1-2mm in diameter that resemble millet seeds.
Clinical manifestations are nonspecific and protean, depending on the predominant site of involvement. Fever, night sweats, anorexia, weakness and weight loss are presenting symptoms in the majority cases. At times, patient has cough and other respiratory symptoms due to pulmonary involvement as well as abdominal symptoms. Physical findings include hepatomegaly, splenomegaly and lymohadenopathy. Eye examination may reveal choroidal tubercles, which are pathognomonic of military TB.
CXR reveals a military reticulonodular pattern, although no radiographic abnormality may be evident early in the course and among HIV-infected patients. Other radiologic findings include large infiltrates, interstitial infiltrates and pleural effusion. Sputum smear microscopy is negative in 80% of cases.
Various hematologic abnormalities may be seen, including anemia with leukopenia, lymphopenia, neutrophilic leukocytosis and leukemoid reactions, and polycythemia. Disseminated intravascular coagulation has been reported. Elevation of alkaline phosphatase levels and other abnormal values in liver function tests are detected in patients with severe hepatic involvement. The TST may be negative in up to half of cases, but reactivity may be restored during chemotherapy. Bronchoalveolar lavage and transbronchial biopsy are more likely to provide bacteriologic confirmation, and granulomas are evident in liver or bone-marrow biopsy specimens from many patients. If it goes unrecognized, miliary tuberculosis is lethal; with proper early treatment, however, it is amenable to cure. Glucocorticoid therapy has not proved beneficial.
A rare presentation seen in the elderly is cryptic miliary tuberculosis, which has a chronic course characterized by mild intermittent fever, anemia, and—ultimately—meningeal involvement preceding death. An acute septicemic form, nonreactive miliary tuberculosis, occurs very rarely and is due to massive hematogenous dissemination of tubercle bacilli. Pancytopenia is common in this form of disease, which is rapidly fatal. At postmortem examination, multiple necrotic but nongranulomatous ("nonreactive") lesions are detected.

DIAGNOSIS
AFB microscopy
Although rapid and inexpensive, AFB microscopy  has a relatively low sensitivity in confirmed cases of pulmonary TB. Most modern laboratories processing large numbers of diagnostic specimens use auramine-rhodamine staining and fluorescence microscopy. The more traditional method—light microscopy of specimens stained with Kinyoun or Ziehl-Neelsen basic fuchsin dyes—is satisfactory, although more time-consuming. For patients with suspected pulmonary tuberculosis, three sputum specimens, preferably collected early in the morning, should be submitted to the laboratory for AFB smear and mycobacterial culture. If tissue is obtained, it is critical that the portion of the specimen intended for culture not be put in formaldehyde. The use of AFB microscopy on urine or gastric lavage fluid is limited by the presence of commensal mycobacteria that can cause false-positive results.
Mycobacterial Culture
Specimens may be inoculated onto egg- or agar-based medium (e.g., Löwenstein-Jensen or Middlebrook 7H10) and incubated at 37°C (under 5% CO2 for Middlebrook medium). Because most species of mycobacteria, including M. tuberculosis, grow slowly, 4–8 weeks may be required before growth is detected. Although M. tuberculosis may be presumptively identified on the basis of growth time and colony pigmentation and morphology, a variety of biochemical tests have traditionally been used to speciate mycobacterial isolates.
Nucleic acid amplification
These systems permit the diagnosis of tuberculosis in as little as several hours, with high specificity and sensitivity approaching that of culture. These tests are most useful for the rapid confirmation of tuberculosis in persons with AFB-positive specimens but also have utility for the diagnosis of AFB-negative pulmonary and extrapulmonary tuberculosis.

Drug susceptibility testing
In general, the initial isolate of M. tuberculosis should be tested for susceptibility to isoniazid, rifampin, and ethambutol. In addition, expanded susceptibility testing is mandatory when resistance to one or more of these drugs is found or the patient either fails to respond to initial therapy or has a relapse after the completion of treatment.
Susceptibility testing may be conducted directly (with the clinical specimen) or indirectly (with mycobacterial cultures) on solid or liquid medium. Results are obtained most rapidly by direct susceptibility testing on liquid medium, with an average reporting time of 3 weeks. With indirect testing on solid medium, results may be unavailable for 8 weeks. Molecular methods for the rapid identification of genetic mutations known to be associated with resistance to rifampin and isoniazid have been developed but are not marketed in the United States.
Radiographic Procedures
The initial suspicion of pulmonary tuberculosis is often based on abnormal chest radiographic findings in a patient with respiratory symptoms. Although the "classic" picture is that of upper-lobe disease with infiltrates and cavities, virtually any radiographic pattern—from a normal film or a solitary pulmonary nodule to diffuse alveolar infiltrates in a patient with ARDS—may be seen. MRI is useful in the diagnosis of intracranial tuberculosis.

DIAGNOSIS OF LATENT TB INFECTION
Tuberculin Skin Testing
Skin testing with tuberculin purified protein derivative (PPD) is most widely used in screening for latent M. TB infection. The test is limited value in the diagnosis of active TB because of its relatively low sensitivity & specificity and its inability to discriminate between latent infection and active disease. False-negative reactions are common in immunosuppressed patients and in those with overwhelming TB. False-positive reactions may be caused by infections with nontuberculous mycobacteria and by bacilli Calmette-Guerin vaccination (BCG).

 TREATMENT
Two aims of TB treatment are to interrupt TB transmission and to prevent morbidity and death by curing patients with TB. Randomized clinical trials clearly indicated that the administartaion of streptomysin to patients with chronic TB reduced mortality rates and led to cure in majority cases. With the discovery of para-aminosalicylic acis (PAS) and isoniazid, it became axiomatic that cure of TB require concomitant administration of at least two agents to which the organism was susceptible. Early clinical trials demonstrated that a long period of treatment was required to prevent recurrence.
Drugs
4 major drugs are considered the first-line agents for the treatment of TB: isoniazid, rifampin, pyrazinamide and ethambutol.
These drugs are well absorbed  after oral administration, with peak serum levels at 2-4hrs and nearly complete elimination within 24h. these agents are recommended on the basis of their bactericidal activity, their sterilizing activity and  their low rate of induction of drug resistance.

Regimens
Standard short-course regimens are divided into an initial, or bactericidal, phase and a continuation, or sterilizing, phase. During the initial phase, the majority of the tubercle bacilli are killed, symptoms resolve, and usually the patient becomes noninfectious. The continuation phase is required to eliminate persisting mycobacteria and prevent relapse.
The treatment regimen of choice for virtually all forms of TB in both adults and children consists of a 2-month initial phase of isoniazid, rifampin, pyrazinamide and ethambutol followed by a 4-month continuation phase of isoniazid and rifampin.
Treatment may be given daily throughout the course or intermittently (3x/week OR 2x/week after an initial phase of daily therapy). Continuation phase of once-weekly rifapentine and isoniazid is equally effective for HIV-seronegative patients with noncavitary pulmonary tuberculosis who have negative sputum cultures at 2 months. Intermittent treatment is especially useful for patients whose therapy is being directly observed. Patinets with cavitary pulmonary TB and delayed sputum-culture onversion should have the continuation phase extended by 3 months, for a total course of 9months.
For patients with sputum culture–negative pulmonary tuberculosis, the duration of treatment may be reduced to a total of 4 months. To prevent isoniazid-related neuropathy, pyridoxine (10–25 mg/d) should be added to the regimen given to persons at high risk of vitamin B6 deficiency.
H: isoniazid; R=rifampin; Z=pyrazinamide; E=ethambutol; S=streptomycin; Q=quinolone; PAS=para-aminosalicylic acid

Monitoring Treatment Response & Drug Toxicity
Patients with pulmonary disease should have their sputum examined monthly until cultures become negative. >80% of patients will have negative sputum cultures at the end of second month of treatment. By the end of third month, virtually all patients should be culture-negative. In some patients, especially those with extensive cavitary disease and large numbers of organisms, AFB smear conversion may lag behind culture conversion. This phenomenon is presumably due to the expectoration and microscopic visualization of dead bacilli. As noted above, patients with cavitary disease who do not achieve sputum culture conversion by 2 months require extended treatment.
When a patient's sputum cultures remain positive at 3 months, treatment failure and drug resistance or poor adherence with the regimen should be suspected. A sputum specimen should be collected by the end of treatment to document cure. If mycobacterial cultures are not practical, then monitoring by AFB smear examination should be undertaken at 2, 5, and 6 months. Smears that are positive after 5 months of treatment in a patient known to be adherent are indicative of treatment failure.
The most common adverse reaction of significance is hepatitis. Patients should be carefully educated about the signs and symptoms of drug-induced hepatitis (e.g., dark urine, loss of appetite) and should be instructed to discontinue treatment promptly and see their health care provider should these symptoms occur.
Hypersensitivity reactions usually require the discontinuation of all drugs and rechallenge to determine which agent is the culprit. Hyperuricemia and arthralgia caused by pyrazinamide can usually be managed by the administration of acetylsalicylic acid; however, pyrazinamide treatment should be stopped if the patient develops gouty arthritis.
Individuals who develop autoimmune thrombocytopenia secondary to rifampin therapy should not receive the drug thereafter. Similarly, the occurrence of optic neuritis with ethambutol is an indication for permanent discontinuation of this drug.
Other common manifestations of drug intolerance, such as pruritus and gastrointestinal upset, can generally be managed without the interruption of therapy.



Ref: Harrison's Principal of Internal Medicine

Proudly present...

Its My Judicium Day!! 

December 22nd, 2011

Its the day where i officially (& finally) ended my theory years and eligible to pursue in clinical years...




Me (first from left), with my fellow friends.. 




and the journey continues... 

Nor Ain Ghazali (M.D Unhas)

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Thursday, 13 October 2011

Happy? Excited? Nervous!!

Assalamualaikum..

Hello & Hye Fellas!!
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hari nie hati manyak senang... pagi2 bangun, mandi n siap2 utk ke campus.. bersama si jantung hati la kan.. mule2 kaki melangkah pergi bank, tetibe sakit plak lutut.. aiseh.. takkan osteoarthritis di usia yang muda nie kan.. no no no.. maybe kaki ni dah berkarat sebab da lama tak jalan dengan laju N excited macam tu.. ntah nape harini energy tu lebih sket kan.. cam nak lompat2 je keliling tempat nie.. haha.. giler kan?
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tadi campus sunyi sepi jek.. cam hari cuti.. tapi harini mane ada orang cuti.. mungkin pagi sangat kot kami gi kelas tadi.. tapi takde la pagi mane pun rasenya.. jam dah pukul 9 kot.. campus lengang.. em.. beberapa urusan pun terbantut tadi.. tapi takpe la.. alhamdulillah.. beberapa urusan yang dirasakan patut diutamakan dah pun berjaya diselesaikan.. tinggal a few little-yet-messy things yang HARUS dikerjakan within dis week.. tapi itu yang biasanye malas+leceh giler nak kene urus... TIBA2!! Fauze berbicara, meng'volunteer'kan diri nak uruskan semua tuh... ohhh.. suwit!! hehe.. nie sayang lebih nie.. hee... tapi aku compensate jugak la dengan menolong dia dengan kerja2 yang mampu aku uruskan..takkan nak biarkan dia wat keje sorang2 kan.. kata sayang.. hehe..

Time tgh sarap tadi, tibe2 Fauze memberi opinion untuk aku balik Malaysia for a few weeks.. sekali gus sambut Hari Raya Aidiladha yang dijangka jatuh pd 6hb November 2011.. raya tu beb!! tapi.. aritu baru lagi balik kan.. so cam taktau la nak balik ke tak.. klu balik uma jadi KAYU je la aku nanti taktau nak wat ape.. tgk abah gi kerja, abang gi keje kat sekolah.. adik pun gi sekolah.. aku nak watpe?? jadi anak dara terakhir la kat uma tu kan.. em.. masih dipikirkan.. insyaAllah akan balik tapi taktau la lagi bile tarikhnye itu.. kene keluarkan PROPOSAL utk my BIG BOSS yang ada kat uma, baru boleh sembang panjang.. hehe..  semoga dipermudahkan.. InsyaAllah

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Klu bagi muke menggoda camni agak2 BIG BOSS layan request tak? heh~



ok la.. nanti tulis lagi.. kat sini dah nak masuk tengahari.. jap lagi Zohor.. nak rehat2, lelap kan mata ke pulak kan.. ehe~..

Hugs & Loves

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P/s:: Cantik tak layout baru blog nie?? harap korang suke la dengan changes yang ada.. orang cakap takde la sakit mata nak membaca entry, sakit telinga dgr lagu yang ada.. nanti akan ada entry apa yang dah jadi sampai berlakunye changes yang ada skang.. insyaAllah.. okey.. roger&out~

Wednesday, 12 October 2011

Re-Post :: Di saat Aku MenCintaimu~~

Atas sebab2 yang tak dapat dielakkan, post yang sebelum ni terpaksa di delet dan di re-write semula..

Enjoy~

Di Saat Aku MenCintaimu

Mengapa kau pergi, mengapa kau pergi
Disaat aku mulai mencintaimu
Berharap engkau jadi kekasih hatiku
Malah kau pergi jauh dari hidupku

Menyendiri lagi, menyendiri lagi
Disaat kau tinggalkan diriku pergi
Tak pernah ada yang menghiasi hariku
Disaat aku terbangun dari tidurku

Aku inginkan dirimu datang dan temui aku
Kan ku katakn padamu aku sangat mencintai dirmu
Aku inginkan dirimu datang dan temui aku
Kan ku katakan padamu aku sangat mencinta

Menyendiri lagi, menyendiri lagi
Di saat kau tinggalkan diriku pergi
Tak pernah ada yang menghiasi hariku
Di saat aku terbangun dari tidurku

Semoga engkau kan mengerti tentang perasaan ini
Maaf aku telah terbuai akan indahnya cinta
Maaf sungguh ku tak bisa untuk kembali kepadamu
Maaf ku telah terbuai akan indahnye cinta
Aku inginkan dirimu datang dan temui aku
Kan ku katakan padamu aku sangat mencinta


UnDeR ConSTRucTiOn!!

Assalamualaikum -- Hye -- Helo Fellas!

This is a short notice for all readers out there.. (ewaah) This site is currently under construction.. dont be shocked by the new appearance.. u guys still viewing blogspot created by draienxz89...(ehem-ehem)
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P/s: Gue sendiri gak ngerti apa yang gue mau omongin~ Kodonggg...~~  =)




Tuesday, 11 October 2011

Unfinished business..


Assalamualaikum...

Helo & Hi Fellas!! 
Ni adalah second entry dari diri aku after a while gone missing in d wind.. ecewahh.. gone la sangat kan..  hihi.. 
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Local time menunjukkan 20.53hr... time2 camni dah mule taktau nak wat ape..after struggle nak dapat internet connection yang smooth & silky, akhirnye berjaya jugak la diri ini menembusi talian yang ada dan akhirnyaaaa.. yayyy~~ my beloved blogspot.. okay agak kurang matang kat situ..
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Ape benda la yang aku ngarut nie kan? okay la.. so ape yg dah jadi harini ek? ape benda la yang "unfinished business" sangat tu? post title cam gempak gilak je kan.. takde la gempak mana pun.. semalam kan dah habis exam.. so harini kerjanya menguruskan hal2 yang bersangkut paut dengan wisuda.. (ape kejadah haram pulak la "wisuda" tu kan?) takde pape yang haram kat sini.. wisuda is just a term that local people used to describe a day that we, Malaysian people used to call as "CONVOCATION DAY"... oh yeah! eh eh.. nape cam cepat sangat kan convo aku nie kan.. kata belajaq medic, takkan 3 tahun je.. ye dak?? oh oh jangan cepat sangat lompat ke situ... wisuda kali ni hanya untuk pre-clinical/theory year.. so university kami yang terchenta  ni suke sangat aktiviti konvo-monvo ni sampai kitorang sume akan grad sebanyak 2x... once dah habis theory N right after dah habis clinical.. so skang aku dah habis dah theory secara unofficial.. just tunggu result announce, n if dah lulus semua (aminnnn) kami semua akan grad InsyaAllah by December this year.. so aku sebagai seorang hambaNya yang lemah hanya mampu berdoa dan bertawakal dengan seikhlas hati semoga semua urusan dapat berjalan lancar & dapat Grad/Wisuda dengan jayanya.. sama2 kita doakan okay? 
Aminn, InsyaAllah... 
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N tadi aktiviti yang aku dan Fauze buat adalah, amik gambar!! yeah, photoshoot time! Antara stuff yang kami kene submit utk grad nanti adalah gambar ukuran passport.. yang berwarna and black&white punyer gambar.. cam pelik giler ape benda la yang diorang nak wat dengan gambar B&W tu nanti.. klu ikut requirement gambar wisuda kene pakai baju kebaya N sanggul2 bagai... 
APE KEJADAHNYE SEMUA INI????  

yah.. itu la sepatutnye dilakukan.. itu adalah formal attire diorang kat sini.. klu pegi majlis mane2 pun mst attire diorang sume mcm tu.. even makcik2 nenek2 klu nak gi kenduri or event apa pun akan dress up mcm tu (except majlis orang meninggal etc la kan).. so kami (actually aku sorang je) sebagai Malaysian yang tak begitu mengamalkan gaya dress up yang macam tu cube la mengenakan pakaian kebanGGaan kite semua which is baju kurung.. nice je aku tgk diri sendiri dalam pakaian itu.. ekeke~.. Fauze plak kene la ikut requirement yang da ditetapkan which is kene pakai tie & coat (which i find a common formal attire at our country la kan).. so takde la masalah sangat untuk Fauze even dia ada la merungut2 sikit nak kene dress up  smart2 hensem2.. siap suruh aku pilih suitable tie lagi untuk dia tapi sorry arrr.. aku tgh tak berapa nak ada mood sket time tu so cam---..ahhh pilih sendiri!! muahahaha.. sory love.. 
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Tak lama lepas tu, gambar pun siap diproses...  kitorang sibuk nak tengok gambar yang dah dihasilkan.. berebut la nak tengok gambar tu then nak komen2, then nak gelak2.. hampeh! Aku gelakkan dia, dia gelakkan aku.. elok sangat lah tu!! huhu.. dah setel sume kat kedai gambar tu kitorang bergerak ke mall berhampiran sbb nak isi perut yang da kebulur.. Tetibe Fauze ajak makan KFC, aku pun ok je la.. cam dah lama tak makan fast food.. sekali sekala melayan nafsu apa salahnye kan.. bukan selalu... ape lagi, faveret menu bila kat KFC adalah spaghetti, chicken soup, ayam seketul, kentang small size & mocha as drink.. (makan giler banyak, tapi badan kocik je jang).. Fauze plak suke makan set yang ada nasi & ayam.. 
yup yup!! indone punye KFC ada serve nasi!!! haa.. gile kan? mana nak jumpe kat Malaysia.. (setahu aku takde la kan.. da lama tak pergi KFC Malaysia)  Variety is fun indeed!
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Lepas makan, kitorang gerak balik ke rumah masing2.. sebelum tu singgah campus jap nak tgk ada pape news tak dari bahagian academic.. kot2 ada shocking news ever ke kan.. sekali kat depan bagian academic jumpe Dean la pulak kan.. Aku suke betul jumpe Dean time die gud mood.. sangat soft spoken orangnye.. His voice pun sangat unique makes me adore him more.. haha.. tapi klu time die naik hantu, semua pun kene halau.. itu orang yang citer la.. aku tak penah jumpe dia dalam condition camtu.. mungkin belum tibe masanya.. Walaupun lately ramai cakap Dean jahat cam hantu.. Tadi dia siap concern lagi tengok dak2 junior kene berkumpul ramai2, dia cam curious kenapa dak2 tu kene kumpul ramai2 kat satu tempat tu.. nampak la cam die concern lebih kat students beliau.. taktau la klu saje nak tunjuk baik depan kitorang kan.. hahaha.. cam la dia takde keje lain je kan.. LOL..

Malam tadi after aku sembahyang maghrib, aku tengok tv show Masterchef.. cam layan gak ar tengok kan.. first aku tgk show ni time aku KKN dulu.. alangkah bernasib baiknye aku dapat duduk kat rumah yang fully equip, siap dapat tgk TV lagi bila ada free time.. syok.. dak2 indone tu la yang ajar aku tgk Masterchef version Indone, start dari situ la, aku mula giler dengan rancangan masak memasak tu.. bukan sebab aku suke bab masak2, tapi sebab aku suke tgk diorang kene bambu dengan chef2 yang laser tahap zasssssss.. kat Malaysia kalau tak silap akan start around 22nd October ni so lepas nie akan sibuk download Masterchef  Malaysia la pulak kan... agak curious disini sape la yang jadi judges agaknye yek? Tunggu je la jang... 
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so dats it seputar isu2 alam yang berlaku dalam hidup hamba.. esok taktau lagi ape yang boleh dibuat untuk mengisi masa yang lapang.. esok pagi baru nak pikir ape yang boleh dibuat.. malas nk pikir awal2.. sbb taku2 nanti rase MALAS menguasai diri... coming up ahead, ada plan yang nak dibuat between me & Fauze.. tak tahu la jadi ke tak.. harap2 jadi la.. Benda baik haruslah dijayakan, ye tak? hehehe.. stay tune for coming up news okay fellas...

...Till then, Hugs & Loves...

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Monday, 10 October 2011

weeeee-hooooooo, I'm back!!!

Assalamualaikum..

Halo sahabat2, teman2, rakan2, besties2 ku sekalian.. Korang semua apa khabar? walau kat mana pun keberadaan korang sekarang nie, aku harap semua berada dalam keadaan baik, gumbira, sihat walafiat hendaknye.. Lama tak update kan? LAMA GILER BEB.. jap2 aku nak cek bile last entry aku kat sini..

wallaweyhhhhhhhhh!!!!!! 22 may beb!! berzaman giler tak update blog nie kan.. haha.. nak buat macam mane.. since last entry jari jemari aku ni rase malas je nak mengetuk2 keyboard nie ha.. malas jugak kepala otak nak bekerja susun ayat utk entry2.. lagipun takde jugelah ceritera yang menarik utk dihidangkan buat korang semua selain ceritera hikayat studies life aku kat sini..

so ape yg telah berjaya membuatkan aku rajin nak menaip www.blogger.com kat address tab kat atas tu? em.. saje.. basically saje2 sb skang kepala aku dah macam tenang sikit dari kegilaan dunia student medic.. rasa relief sangat2 after exam tadi... kepala otak aku kata aku dah layak untuk enjoy sehabis2an... tapi hati aku kata, buat2 banyak bersabar.. belum masanye utk bergembira.. exam tu kan small matter je.. banyak lagi benda lain yang aku kene hadap lepas nie.. so dont dream too high babe~

then, ape yang dah jadi kat aku dalam beberapa bulan aku tak update nie eh? macam yang aku dah reviewkan kat last entry kan, aku kene pergi KKN.. so skang ni aku dah lulus itu program KKN.. lulus dengan jayanya (dapat A beb!!).. haha.. so 2 bulan aku ber"KKN" kat kampung orang.. jumpe kawan2 baru, selain dari si Aris yang jadi satu2nya Malaysian companion aku kat sana.. nasib baik ada dia.. dia la jadi mangsa utk aku borak2 dengan menggunakan Bahasa Malaysia!! haha.. overall KKN tu takde la buat aku busy tak ingat dunia ke ape ke kan.. sume aktiviti kat sana santai2 jer.. best giler.. bangun pagi2 makan, mandi then tengok tv.. tak pun gi jalan2 keliling kampung dengan member2.. bile ada projek kene buat, kitorang buat ramai2 so takde la rase penat sangat.. semua program kerja berjalan lancar, orang kampung semua ramah2.. bila da last2 tu ada la internal problems sikit sesama member2, tapi.. ada aku kesah..? haha.. gasak korang ler nak ada masalah ke, nak buat masalah ke.. aku taknak peduli.. jahat tak? muahahaha~

KKN selesai time pertengahan bulan puasa.. ape lagi.. lets roll back to malaysia la kan! hihi.. aku pun balik la Malaysia lepas abes KKN.. another fun thing happen.. kali ni dapat balik Malaysia AND jumpe en najib!!!! oh-mei-goat lama giler tak jumpe dierrrr~ as skang die dah keje kat semenyih, so malam aku balik tu dia janji nak jumpe aku n belanja aku makan.. plan punyer plan punyer plan, aku gagahkan diri naik bas dari LCCT ke KL sentral & kitorang jumpe la kat sana.. HEEEEEE~~~ happy sangat taim tu.. pas 3 tahun akhirnye jumpe gak.. kat LCCT of course la jumpe family fauze.. tapi tak lama cos aku terpaksa rushing utk sampai kl before kul 11.. kat KL sentral jumpe en najib N lepak2 for a while, makan, borak then aku terpaksa undurkan diri naik bas nak balik ke kuantan~ Dat nite was a marvelous nite indeed!!

Then aku sampai Kuantan around 5am in the morning... abah N ma yang jemput aku kat stesen bas.. terharu beb bila mama bawakkan aku kurma N air utk aku sahur time tuh.. kos klu nak balik or benti makan sahur kat mana2 mmg tak sempat ar kan.. berkat sahur dengan family gamaknye, aritu aku puasa dengan jayanye tanpa rase penat, tapi sebaliknye diganti dengan rasa happy sbb i managed to met my beloved family.. love abah.. love mama~

Raya Aidilfitri aritu sama macam tahun sebelumnye..semua dapat berkumpul dengan jayanye.. tapi tahun ni ada tambahan orang.. ada wife abang N baby girl angah yang bernama Arissha... complete!! walaupun baru je 2 ari aku lepak kat uma, da demam... nasib baik 1 ari je aku demam.. well, bakal doktor kene pandai manage kesihatan sendiri, ye tak? hihi~ Cuti raya aku tak lama pun.. dalam seminggu je.. then balik Makasar semula.. Fauze balik awal lagi dari aku sbb dia da TERbeli tiket awal.. aku balik lambat 2 hari.. sampai je kat epot of course la Fauze yang jemput kan.. hihi.. then esoknye dah kene prepare utk classes... phew~~

So itu la seputar alam kisah update aku since 5 bulan lepas.. tentang apa yang dah jadi secara basic & generalisata.. tak larat la pulak nak tulis detail2 nie kan.. huhu.. ni pun dah rase cam lenguh je tangan aku nieh..hihi~

Skang ni aku da berada pada steady state di mana tiada lagi upcoming exam (insyaAllah).. marila sama2 kita doakan semoga segala urusan berjalan lancar.. aminn~

Ape2 berita terbaru yang menarik lagi tertarik da boom akan diupdate kemudian.. Dah dah mari kita semua tidor.. aku nak qada'kan tidur aku puas2.. nanti dah jadi doktor mane ada masa nak tidor2 lagi dah kan.. eceeh~~

Till next entry, lots of hugs N loves to all~


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Sunday, 22 May 2011

Kerisauan MElanda~

Hye semua!! Assalamualaikum.. it's sunday and im sitting tightly in my room.. last friday baru je selesai dgn exam remedial & Isnin (esok) dah pun mula Tropical Medicine blockk... alahai bosannya.. sgt2 tak ready untuk masuk kelas lagi..  =.=!

Dis morning bangun pagi N takde ape nak dibuat sangat.. so pagi2 buatla aktiviti yg macam dirancang.. Basuh baju (actually just campakk masuk lam washing machine je) then masak nasi goreng!!! hahaha.. semangat betul aku jadi chef sejak pindah ni.. itupun dah bosan tatau nak masak ape.. huhu.. bangun arini suasana pun suram2 je mendung.. macam nak ujan tapi tak ujan! N skang, panas bukan main lagi.. buat mata aku kuyu jek.. malas nak beraktiviti kat luar.. mata aku dah bengkak2 ni sb too much sleeping.. haha.. ni je la yg aku nak wat pun.. bila nak exam, bukan main lagi stay up.. tido lepas smayang subuh.. then bangun study lagi.. pas abes xm ape lagi, qada' tido je la kejenye.. haha..

bila abes xm ni barula ada peluang nak update sana sini.. update fb, twitter n of course la blogging time.. jalan2 kat blog org len, seronok rase dapat baca update stories dari mereka sume.. ada yang dah masuk practical la.. dah attachment la.. mcm2 la gelaran yang diorg bagi time2 cuti camni.. kat Msia, budak2 U dah pun mula cuti sem.. 4 bulan lagi tu.. punyer la lama.. aku kat sini cuti 4 hari pun belum tentu.. isk isk.. aku tumpang gembira + excited dapat tau member2 dah mula "kerja".. aku consider bila diorg dah masuk practical/attachment tu dah kira kerja la kan.. hurmm.. bestnye dah mula melangkah ke next stage dalam hidup masing2.. aku kat sini stil lagi dlam stage memenuhkan ilmu di dada.. tu pun stil tak penuh2 lagi sb byk main dari study.. hahaha.. haiisshh..

so skang pas je abes xm ni aku sibuk duk layan drama tv3 --> nora elena.. sape2 yang ada kat malaysia tu tau la kot citer ni pasal ape.. yang penting citer ni ada Aaron aziz!! haahahahaa.. yeaa.. aku gilakan aaron skang nie.. dalam cite tu dia sgt sweet kot (actually dalam ape2 citer pun sweettt) ehehehe... internet dah unlimited.. taktau nak watpe, so download la ape2 muvie yng best2 kan.. termasuk la drama2 melayu.. selalu sgt dah tgk citer english, kdg2 nak jugak layan citer melayu kan.. yang ditunggu2 untuk didownload citer Lu Langsi Lu Mati & Nur Kasih d Movie.. Aisshh.. cepat2 la keluar. jgn la keluar bila aku dah berlepas utk KKN nt.. dah la masa KKN nt aku terlepas movie Transformers 3.. wuwuwuw..

citer pasal KKN, aku sgt berdebar2.. haa.. KKN ni boleh la dikira macam attachment aku jugak... (tau pun berdebar2.. tadi macam jeles bila org lain dah practical... ;p  ).. hihi.. cume bezanya attachment aku ni kat kampung2.. rural area gitu..  (adake bandar kat sini???.. ahahaha...)   so sgt la cuak di hati ni memikirkan orang camne la aku bakal berdepan nt.. kot2 la kan depa jenis yg suke ilmu2 mistik ni mau tak cuakk?  harap2 la aku dilindungi dari benda2 mcm tu.. huhuhu..~ bukan apa.. dah la lama aku kat situ nt.. 2 bulannnn!!!  ntah ape la yang jadi aku kat situ nt.. katanya kitorg masing2 akan dimasukkan lam 1 group yang tak mungkin ada org lain yg ko akan kenal.. sbb KKN ni melibatkan seluruh fac yang berkaitan dengan kesihatan. so budak2 dari fac nursing, pharmacy, MEDICAL  N etc akan bergabung & randomly gathered in a few groups.. so dgr kata dari senior2 tak mungkin ada Malaysian lain dalam 1 group.. in ur group, it will be ONLY U Malaysian in dat group..!! OMGG~ mati la akuuu.. hehe.. exaggerate plak.. itula kisahnye.. so physically preparation tu mgkin tak de ape sgt la... Mentally? Memang aku tak ready sgt2.. but the time will come.. dah tak lama dah lagi.. so nak tak nak kene hadapi jugak la kan.. klu tak, tak Graduate la aku dari theory years ni kan.. huhuhu.. CUAKNYE~  =.="



haa.. incik beruang dah mula msg.. baru bangun dari tido la tuh.. nak kene layan si buah hati ni plak.. kang tak layan merajuk pule.. thanx for reading this entry n will update soon!  tc! 

Assalamualaikum~